I find myself facing a lab report again. Nothing new, nothing foreign. In fact, it seems like year one theory. It almost seems too easy.
Then i look at all the questions. Of the 4, i had only done one myself, copied one, and have yet to do the other 2. I look at the rest of the structure and i realise my theory section is still blank.
Its 5am , 3 minutes since i stopped. No, 30 minutes since i stopped, 2 hours since i’ve started. Ok, i’m making good time considering i’ve showered and even got myself a good, hot cuppa of my current favorite blend of ovaltine and coffee.
But its 5am. And i’ve only worked maybe an hour at a stretch before being distracted. My eyes are heavy and my mind weary. Why didn’t i start earlier? Hall activities. Why didn’t I not go? I realised even though I knew I had work, in the back of my mind, I know its one of the few things keeping me sane.
I’ve been the worst group member of 2 groups so far… and i’m not proud of it. This time i couldn’t find the time to do the last minute work I used to be so good at.
I’m tired. But i have to go on. And no matter how many people i ask, no one seems to care enough to approach me about it or kick my ass hard enough.
I thought about why i couldn’t stay with the best-in the loo , of all places- and i came to realise:
Have you beaten the best yet? If you have but haven’t beaten yourself yet, then you will never be the best; There’s still yourself to overcome. You will always be in the way on your journey to perfection.
