Maybe its because i’ve been cooped up inside this thin-walled, run down barracks that my friend has helped put me up in. Its free, so i can’t complain. And to be out of the 14 degree weather, with 13 degree windchill and cold rain, is honestly a blessing!
I’m not happy as i have planned out my life for the next 4 weeks
I think many people will be unhappy NOT knowing what is happening in the next 4 weeks. But, i am different. I can just see myself, burnt out and totally unhappy in 3 weeks.
Thats whats affecting my trip now. Now i just want to mope around and sulk and not take the flight home. But of course, i won’t do that. I keep thinking of whats going to happen, when i haven’t even sorted out my current situation. Its a serious flaw i have.
I have my whole day ahead of me, but next month is casting a long shadow on my mood. whats up with that?
I live in the future. I am forever cursed to search for happiness I cannot find as it will be right here beside me, with me, now.
